My left heel started hurting last night.
It has always been my right heel and foot in the past.
When I listen in, it doesn’t have much to say.
Just a heightened awareness of a point
In my lower back.
That is different too.
My lower back nearly always hurts
Right before my biggest life changes.
It was aching a little bit yesterday.
But nothing like the big episodes of the past.
I just thought of something that hadn’t occurred to me before
During my own birth
Being induced early to prevent me getting too big,
caused my mother to have extreme lower back pain
Maybe this has been going on
For a LONG time.
I think I’m ready to let go
Of being afraid to be too big.
Be who you are beautiful one.
I know this one is a big life change,
Not because of a deep intuition
But because I choose it.
I will be unstoppable
As much as I can
With compassion for myself.
When doubt comes in,
I will greet it with,
"We’ll see. I’m going to keep doing this right now.”
I celebrate this change.
I’m all in.
It feels GOOD.